I thought that I had never known grief
but perhaps I have known grief my whole life
Since I have never known you

I clung to you, you held me
and yet I have never known you
You grew me, birthed me
and yet I have never known you
You gave me physical traits
and some of my personality
and yet I have never known you

These things are made known to me
through people who do
who did
They love you and
you loved me
and yet I have never known you

I have spent my whole life searching
for someone like you
Someone to help me understand
to see me the way I assume you would
To understand me as though they carried me
in their womb for nine months
and nursed me when I needed nourishment
To provide me with comfort and peace

I have spent my whole life searching for you
and yet I have never found you

I thought that I had never known grief
but perhaps I have known grief my whole life
since I have never known you.